Starting off 2012 I didn't know what to expect. All I knew is that I was very broken, that if you took a close look at my heart you would see many areas of my life were broken. I desperately wanted all aspects of my life to be healed. But the first priority in this process was allowing the Lord to heal my heart and my past. I was angry at him, angry at myself for my past trauma and angry at people who I thought hurt me. This process of healing didn't feel like healing at first, it felt like I was reliving things that I wanted to forget. I knew I needed to continue to work on reconciling what happened to me in my childhood and moving forward as a healthier person to my husband, my son and people around me. After I started to really deal with my trauma I started to see all kinds of areas in my life being healed. Then I started to see this girl emerge. I didn't recognize her at first. She was lovely, encouraging, fought for me and she soothed me. It was the Jessica that I was always meant to be, the one whose parents haven't hurt her.
2012 has been forgiveness
forgiving others, forgiving myself and accepting that I have been forgiven
2012 has been healing
allowing my heart to be healed
2012 has been restoration
restoring my heart, relationships and my faith
2012 has been love
being loved, loving my husband and son and loving my family
2012 has been encouragement
giving encouragement and receiving encouragement
2012 has been a good hard year. I welcome 2013 and all the goodness it has in store for me and my family.
forgiveness, healing, restoration, love and encouragement these are the imprints of 2012.